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I'm too used to having something to do. If I take a break for a day, I feel happy, but if I don't do anything for two consecutive days, I feel like I have not been doing anything for an entire week and that I've been wasting my life away. Sometimes, I even feel just sitting around for an hour makes me restless.

Idk if that's supposed to be a good thing. It's good because I continuously find things for myself to do, like go out and explore or meet friends or read a book or even just simply cleaning up my room. It's enriching to do things and find out new things everyday. It's healthy to take random walks in the parks. It's also good because I can finish things fast, and an hour of my time is more productive than a lot of people. But it's also no good because I can't relax myself properly. I can't allow myself to do nothing at all or stare into space guiltlessly. If I have to stare into space, I would first need to either walk to a bench in the park or get to some café and order a drink first.

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This month I've been taking taxi pretty frequently. I know part of the new year resolutions was to stop wasting money on taxi. But after adult fare, taking taxi seems to be a less waste of money cos the prices are more similar now. Like the price disparity between public transport and taxi has become smaller. But still, I should take the train more often to earn more points so that I get $$ off my ezlink, which is pretty pathetic cos I only got $2 so far. Still, it's better than nothing. And it's also a perk to take the train! :D

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I met another bunch of weird people again today. I was having lunch alone at the food court cos I love beef noodles ❤ then cos it was too crowded, a bunch of adults came to sit at my table. And from the moment they put the food in their mouth, they were complaining non-stop about the food very loudly. Like the vegetables were not fresh, the chicken was cooked too long etc. I thought they were very rude, but my greatest shock came when they said {so expensive yet not nice to eat} O: which part of THIS IS A FOOD COURT do they not understand? It's supposed to be cheap alr and if you get good food, that's pretty much cos you're lucky. Food there was meant to be passable.

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I am deciding on my CNY nails now. I was thinking if I should do a matte nude pink to shimmery pink gradient or try something out with my ENAS nail stamps. Or Konad. Or the Tat Toes. The last three will have a youngish feel, because of the patterns, but the gradient will be classy and will most probably match all my clothes for the whole of CNY. I really can't seem to make up my mind, and I think by the time I decide, it will be none of the above haha. I'm too fickle-minded /: and having too much nail polish adds to the problem because then I have more choices to be fickle-minded with ._.