回顾与展望

photo: me, 2011

It's the first day of 2015, and the beginning of SG50. Well, actually, SG50 started long long ago, and it's only just beginning to go public. That's like my 2015 too, isn't it? I've been preparing long for it, and it's time to go public. In fact, it's like all our 2015. Whether it's an event, a trip, a party. I'm sure we've all been thinking far ahead. There will of course be spontaneity too, and I hope we've all done enough preparation for these too. I'll slowly reveal my plans as the year goes along, and I hope I'll be pleasantly surprised ^___^

On the last day of 2014, clique came over to see how I was doing after my surgery. I've been resting for two weeks alr, and it really does feel good to stop time and stop living like I need to be continuously doing something to feel fulfilled. Maybe, doing nothing at all is when I really start living. Anw, even though clique brought takeaways from Habitat Coffee for me to sniff while they ate, I'm still really grateful for the company. And, grateful for the earl grey ice cream they got me from Salted Caramel. It's my first ice cream ever since the surgery ♥

It hasn't been an awesome year for clique. Outings were few and sparse, and we just failed at planning a staycation (again). But since when have we been successful at this kind of things? I guess it's the rarity of each success that we will treasure it more. We don't need to be together to know that we're together, just the occasional text of updates on our lives will do. We're the kind of people that understanding comes without words.

Holidays were limited as well. I just busted the year-end holiday to Europe with my surgery, though I did go to Korea and Cambodia earlier in the year. They were great trips with amazing experiences. Holidays aren't counted by the number of days I spend overseas, but the amount of fun I get out of each moment (: also including my staycation days and good food days, I think this was a year of good pleasures.

I also learnt a lot of things about family + friendship. I've learnt and am still learning how to become a better granddaughter, daughter, niece, sister and cousin. I've learnt how to read people better; who are the great friends, and who are introducing negativity and sucking my positivity. It's probably about time I learn to cherish the awesome people while learning to get rid of these poisonous people too. No point having so many friends when I can't keep up with everyone anw. And no point keeping people in my life if they are going to disrespect me for the rest of my life too.

The surgery was of cos a big part of the year as well. Not just cos it went ultra smoothly, nor cos I finally awaited this day after ten years, but because it opened my eyes to many things. I thought about a lot of things just lying in bed and staring at the ceiling, including some of the above reflections. Life is always about becoming a better person, and 2015 will see me being better than 2014, and so will 2016 be better than 2015.

I have no new year resolutions, because resolutions are for whenever you want them to happen and not just for the new year. When I think of how I can be better, I will start acting there and then rather than wait for the another year to come by again.

I'm looking forward to how 2015 will unfold for all of us (: