过年 2017



除夕
I really miss the days in Dunman High when we got 除夕 off. But I know it is not right to ask for a day off when there is no day off on the eve of Hari Raya or Deepavali. With racial harmony this sensitive a topic, everything must be fairly distributed. If I really wanted a day off on the eve of CNY, I should not have chosen classes on Friday. But rj made going to school on CNY eve so much better by organising a lohei session in class. It really was the most organised and clean and quiet lohei I have ever seen. People were quiet and shy and there was no mess created o.o we're all classmates, why is there even a need to act 矜持? Or maybe I am just too noisy ._.

Then I went to tyf straight from school where we had the real crazy lohei. See those gigantic crab legs on the table? Those Alaskan snow crabs are wayyy bigger than my face. 

初一
Because this year I decided to send new year greetings to many people whom I have not met or spoken to in a long time, I got to talk to a lot of people and catch up with their lives. Sometimes, the fear of awkwardness is simply what it is, a fear. No one is willing to take the first step even when both parties really want to show concern towards the other. I am glad I broke down that barrier ytd (:

Many of them asked me about my last semester in school, and what I have in mind for the future, and I got a lot of great advice too. For example, ys told me that knowing what I want in life is overrated. Most people don't know, and it is okay. He told me that as long as I know what values are impt to me, and know what I don't want to do, that is enough. I thought that was a really reassuring statement, esp at this stage where I am still struggling to figure out the direction of the rest of my unchartered life, where people stop telling me what to do and expect me to decide for myself what I really want. Being a 20+ year old trying to grasp at the opportunities provided by modernity isn't easy. Each time I think I know, another variable pops up to force me to rethink my understanding of the world. As I go through life and eliminate more and more of the unimpt stuff, I will figure it out someday. And someday does not have to be today.